OMG!!!!

    Well I got a phone call from the oldest. He's staying with his aunt and working. So anyway I told him how I creeped his biological fathers facebook and how he's married and has a son. That made me upset.

    So he tells me that the dude has another kid on the way and has moved to Dauphin. I mean, really, you had to move here. This is my home town. This is where I live.  I work in a very public place. I mean everyone comes in there at one point or another. There's no getting around it.

    He also says that his wife is 2, get that, 2!!!! years younger than him. Matthew is going to be 24 on the 24th of July!!!!

     This is a really short post.


Later All and Be Well

Streaming

So I'm thinking about streaming. As I said in my previous post, hubby says I should do it. He even bought another monitor. I'm just not sure I can do it. I mean, the only game I play is Warcraft. I tried others, Guild Wars, EQ2(even I can't believe I tried it), a couple of Dwayne's games, and Star Wars, but I keep coming back to WoW. It's been a game that has kept me entertained for 6 years and counting.

There are times when I've taken a break but I always come back. Over the years I've become acquainted with so many new and interesting people from all over the world. I've raided back in vanilla with people from Australia, gone to dungeons with others from California and Europe. Had things in common with a lovely lady in one of the New England states(not sure which one). but the one I kept up with the most(at least followed the most) is the BigBearButt. Now that's a blog and I think he should be the one to stream, I just wish that I could be that gregarious and storytelling when I post stuff. :(

Anyway, I think if I keep posting and trying to make it a daily thing, or at least as often as I can, maybe, just maybe, I can work up the courage to try it. Wish me luck.

Later all and Be Well

Gamer

  The title says it all. I am a gamer, hubby is a gamer and all my kids are gamers. I have come to this conclusion due to the fact that I am seriously considering streaming. I mean streaming live, like Towelliee, well maybe not that big. I'm not even sure if I'll get any viewers or followers. Hubby says I can do it cause I like to talk and play games (Warcraft). It would just be a matter of describing what I'm doing and interacting with whatever viewers I get. My laptop is apparently better than his desktop for streaming :) who knew. He even got a second monitor just in case, great huh?

 So if anyone out there read my blog let me know what you think. 


Later All and Be Well

Creeper

I admit it I'm a creeper. every once in a while I check out my ex-boyfriends Facebook page, just to see whats going on in his life. I mean, he is the father of my oldest child and he was my first love and all.
  So I'm checking it out and I see a baby picture on it. I'm like that's not Matthew, who is that kid?
It turns out that he got married again and his new wife gave him a son. And now apparently she is pregnant again.
  I know I should get over it, but he totally denied Matthew and for some reason I can't forgive him for that. When my dad died I sent him a message that his son just wanted to get to meet him. Matthew didn't want anything at all from him but to be able to talk to him and be recognized as his son. But no, that is not possible. Why? Cause he has NO memory of my telling him I'm pregnant or the time that was spent with lawyers and in court. His reason for no memory? He was drunk from the age of 18 to the age of 21, I don't think so buddy.
   His new wife is going to school here in Dauphin. She's taking Business Administration year 1. So what do I do now? I don't want to cause a scene or tension, so I'm just going to let things be. See how it plays out. 
  Taking deep breaths now to keep myself calm.

Later all and Be Well

That's Life

So it's been a looong while since I posted anything. I'm bad I know. I keep having ideas for posts and they are really good ones too, I just can never get around to writing them and putting them up here.

Lately things have been so so around here. I have a job at 7-11 and Dwayne loses his job over a Facebook comment. So watch what you say on there it could cost you your job. I'm going into my second year of Business Administration and so far I like the parts that deal with numbers but not Transaction Law. >.<' It makes my head hurt.  I know I need to know it but it is still so confusing.

My older brother got engaged the other week, and I am so happy for him and his new fiance. I'd like to send her a message thanking her for bringing my brother back to us all. But I'm scared I'll come off sounding a little weird or  unbalanced. The thing is I was used to seeing him all smiles and laughing and just generally being an annoying but loving big brother. When his wife died suddenly it like a switch was turned off inside him. He rarely smiled, told jokes, or picked on anyone. He just wasn't the same. Then he met Mary and I could see the change in him, she turned the switch back on.

I don't know if he reads my blog or not but if he does. I love you and I am soo happy that your happy again. I want to thank Mary with all my heart for giving you back your light. :)

Well that's all for now.

Be Well

Feeling.....

So as the title says 'I'm feeling something' Just not sure what yet. I do recognize it a little bit. I last started feeling like about 3 years ago, right about this time. I didn't know it yet but my dad was dying, mom had told me around xmas time that he wasn't doing to good and might not last long. It was a chore just to get up in the morning and see the kids off to school. When they left I went back to sleep and slept til they got home. I even went to bed when they did. It turns out I was depressed and didn't know it. I hated feeling like that. I had no ambition to do anything at all.
I went and saw a doctor about it and when I mentioned that I felt like nobody would miss me if I was gone he said "Of course no one's going to miss you.Why would you think they'd miss you?" Now what kind of doctor is that anyway? Aren't they supposed to help you? Or at least refer you to someone who can help you? This time around I think I'm gonna see a different kind of Dr, one who specializes in mental health. Cause I really can't afford the depression and harm it does to me.

Later All and Be Well

Grades and Stuff

Hello all. I know it's been awhile since I posted. I know I'm a bad blogger, will have hubby beat me later :P

I did receive marks for the first term of school and I was really happy. I received A's in all my classes except for Computer Systems, that class I got a D in. That was so embarrassing. I mean me who spends about 6 or more hours a day on a computer getting a D. When I posted it on FaceBook did I get bugged. By no means was I at the top of my class, some of my classmates are sitting with all A+'s, but I'm not at the bottom. :)

So far this term Economics is a really dry subject. They should make those texts more user friendly or at least understandable. I mean I'm smart and can usually figure out what something means pretty quickly, but this is unbelievable. Oh well I'll get the hang of it sooner or later. In my other classes their not so bad and actually quite interesting.

We had really mild weather for Christmas this year. On boxing day when we had supper at my sister-in-law's house, and afterwards we had a bonfire! It was nice there wasn't much snow on the ground and it wasn't too cold, and the fire did keep us all toasty and warm.

On the Star Wars front I'm really really wanting to upgrade my comp or get my laptop quickly. However there are no transfers from account to account yet or even from server to server. On hubbies account I have a Sith Sorcerer that I really love and is like 10 levels off the max level you can be. I made her before the rest of group we're gonna play with had received their copies of the game and decided on where they wanted to play. We all knew we were gonna be the Empire (think Darth Vader), for some reason the story lines on the Republic side are really not catching my interest. I can say this tho, some of the light/dark options are really messed up. I mean that you can choose a light side option and your just being evil by doing so.

I think that's it for now, hopefully it won't be so long before I write again. But you never can tell.

Later All and Be Well